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Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Get over him. He's not even worth it. He is not worth your time or your tears. Yea you loved him, I know that. And I know you just can’t see yourself with anyone other than him, I get that. I’ve been there. But why should you spend all your time sitting at home, bawling your eyes out and wondering where he is and who he is with. Do you honestly think he is thinking about you? No. Sure it hurts, the fact that he is out there falling in and out of love with other girls. Yea your gonna see him with one of his new girlfriends. Prepare yourself, cuz straight up; its gonna hurt. He will hold her a little closer and squeeze her hand a little tighter just because he knows your watching. He knows its killing you; that’s why he will do it. Don’t let him get to you because that, well that’s exactly what he wants. Don’t give him what he wants. He doesn’t even deserve it. So what if he doesn't talk to you; do you honestly wanna be friends with an ***hole like him anyways? Thing is I know you still do. But give it time. Because all he would do is talk about his new girlfriend and just try and make you jealous, do you really wanna hear that? No. Screw him and his girlfriend. He will be sorry. Trust me. When he finally sees you with some other guy who’s not him. With that huge grin on your face and your boyfriend holding you close, he will realize how happy you are now. And how happy your boyfriend is because he has you; the girl of his dreams. He will realize the huge mistake he made when he let you go, when he decided to choose her over you. When he decided he just did not love you the same. Trust me, he will be sorry. And don’t you sit there thinking he won't be sorry I know you are. But I guarantee you now; He will be sorry. So don’t go on spending your nights waiting for that one phone call you know your never gonna get. Or that IM you know he will never send you simply because he likes to ignore you. He like to pretend he does not see you online, he does it outta spite just because he knows its killing you. When he walks past you in the hallways he is gonna look past you, but you need to know he will do that cuz he knows somewhere inside you, it will hurt. I ain’t gonna lie to you. It will hurt. It’ll hurt alot. But it will hurt even more when you see her name and how much he loves her in his profile. Its all gonna hurt. Knowing your not the girl that’s making him smile. Knowing your not the first person he thinks of when he wakes up and the last before he goes to sleep. Knowing your not the face on his background of his phone anymore. Knowing if he hasn’t already he will delete the album of pictures of you he has on his phone. Knowing you wont be spending every single moment possible with him. Knowing there’s not gonna be no more late night phone calls arguing about who loves who the most. And you know what, today, tomorrow, next week, months from now; your phone will go off with a text message, you will instantly grab your phone hoping its him saying he wants to give your relationship another shot. But trust me; hes got to much pride. Even if he wanted to be back with you, he wouldn’t tell you. Your soon gonna realize he doesn’t care about you anymore and he wont be the first person you call when your upset. He wont be the one to put that smile back on your face. And yea its gonna hurt; its gonna hurt alot. But you know what your gonna do? Your gonna hold your head up. Your gonna show him your better than him and you don’t need him in your life. Your gonna prove to him that 

- this explains my life



Friday, March 5, 2010

THINGS TO BE FORGOTTEN AND BE REMEMBERED.

One of the reasons why people get so sentimental,, its because memories are the only things that don't change.. when everything else does... there are things that you cant hold on forever,,, no matter how much you fight for it.. no matter how hard you try,,. sometimes, destiny isn't always good, it becomes playful.. when you met someone you learned to love, you thought that it was destiny who made your paths cross.. but, what if making your paths cross is just part of the game that the playful destiny create? making you realize in the end that the person you thought that was destined for you wasn't really meant to stay... but only destined to make you feel love and leave you when you've already fallen...

its not easy to state a reason when you decide to leave your love.. some might think its just an excuse.. some might not actually believe in it.. some will blame you. or even be mad at you. what they don't see is the fact that it hurts you even more to hurt someone who doesn't to be hurt. especially when you cannot  actually state the reason why you have to leave..

you can never own something that was never yours.. so lets stop gripping on things we expect to last forever. nothing lasts forever. forever is a lie. everything is transitory. so while something is in your hand, put in mind that its just borrowed.. so that someday when its gone.,,it wont take you eternity just to let it go.. when your feelings get strong for someone, its always wise to stop for a while and give your heart - a time to breathe. a time to use your mind to weigh the situation based on reason not on emotion.. because the saddest thing that can happen is when one fall in love while the others want nothing more than friendship. love can sometimes be magic. but magic can sometimes be an illusion.

there are times when i wish that i was limited to certain emotions. so that ill never have to experience pain, never feel betrayed or disappointed,  and never get my fragile heart broken.. but the same thing means ill never know how it feels to love and be love in return.. and the thought of it kinda scares me.. to have a heart that's a whole but numb? or a heart that's broken but real?

someday, we will all be looking back to those days we learned to love, get hurt, cry and fight.. maybe.. when that time comes, we will all be laughing at our old dumb selves. realizing how stupid we were to stand up for the things we knew weren't really meant for us. but i guess learning takes time. and mistakes make one's journey fun. life is what we make it. love makes the world go round. so lets live, love, and take whatever pain it brings..

though its hard to wait for something that I know will never happen,,its harder to stop when  I know it's everything I've always wanted.. but you know what? I'm glad.. I'm glad it happened.

thank you for all those memories. sana im okay na,, at ikaw din okay na.. sana happy na ko,, sana kaw din happy ka na.. i'll pray for you everyday,, :'( so long,,, till we meet again.. in God's perfect time..

i miss you still

im not mad,, im just so sad,. :( 

Saturday, October 17, 2009

GOOD MORNING!




thank you morning sunshine:)










"Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it."






BE HAPPY!! Life is a GIFT!! cherish it! LOVE it!! :)


Sunday, October 11, 2009

Life is Like a Cup of Coffee



Spiritual Story by Unknown





A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, got
 together to visit their old university professor. 
Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress 
in work and life.


Offering his guests coffee, the professor went to the kitchen 
and returned with a large pot of coffee and 
an assortment of cups - porcelain, plastic, glass, crystal, 
some plain looking, some expensive,
 some exquisite - telling them to help themselves to the coffee.


When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand,
 the professor said: "If you noticed, all the nice
 looking expensive cups have been taken up, leaving
 behind the plain and cheap ones. 
While it is normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, 
that is the source of your problems and stress.


Be assured that the cup itself adds no quality to the coffee. 
In most cases it is just more expensive and in some cases
 even hides what we drink. What all of you really wanted
 was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the
 best cups... 
And then you began eyeing each other's cups.


Now consider this:
 Life is the coffee; the jobs, money and position
 in society are the cups. 
They are just tools to hold and contain Life,
 and the type of cup we have does not define, 
nor change the quality of life we live.


Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, 
we fail to enjoy the coffee. 
Savor the coffee, not the cups! 


"The happiest people 
don't have the best 
of everything.
They just make . . .
the best of everything." 




SO. . . 


Live simply. 


Love generously.


Care deeply. 


Speak kindly.


:)





Wednesday, October 7, 2009

PRAYER



Glorious St. Raphael, patron and lover of the young, I open my heart to you  and of pleading for your guidance and assistance in the important task of planning my future. Obtain from me through your intercession the light of God’s grace so that I made decide wisely concerning the person who is to be my partner through life. Angel of Happy Meetings, lead us by the hand to find each other. May all our movements be guided by your light and transfigured by your joy as You led the young Tobias to Sara and opened up a new life of happiness with her in holy marriage lead me to such someone who in your angelic wisdom, you judge as the one best suited to the united with me in the marriage.
St. Raphael, loving patron of those seeking marriage partner, help me in these supreme decision of my life, Find for me a holy-mate in life, a person whose character ugly reflect some of the traits of Jesus and Mary. May he be upright, loyal, pure, sincere and noble. So that with unified efforts with  chaste and unselfish live we both may strive to perfect ourselves in body and soul, as well as the children it may please God to entrust to our care.
St. Raphael, Angel of Chaste Courtship, bless our friendship and our love that sin may have no part in it. May our mutual love bind us so closely that our future home may ever be most like the home of the Holy Family of Nazareth. Offer your prayers to God for the both of us and obtain the blessing of God upon our marriage as you were the herald of blessing for the marriage of Tobias and Sara.
St. Raphael, friend of the young, be my friend for we shall always be yours. I desire to ever invoke in our needs, to your special care. I entrust the decision I have to make as to will be my future husband. Direct me to the person with whom I can best cooperate in doing God’s Holy Will, with whom I can live in place, love the harmony in this life and attain eternal joy in the next. AMEN.

In honor of St. Raphael: 1 Our Father, Hail Mary, Glory Be

Monday, October 5, 2009

CACCUPINO! :)

look at me im 23, beautiful, a sight to see tonight. - adopted from plumb's. oh well, just had my big day last day and it was a really a blastful one. i had my duty so i spent half of my life that time with my cute and cuddly.....BABIES!!!!:) 

good thing i had my off after my birthday so i was able to celebrate it with my family. we went to boni high and had a good laugh with them. and ofcourse, a fam affair wouldnt be a family affair without kulitan, tablahan, and bukingan session. haha!! as usual,si kuya budj pumapunch-line na naman.. haha!! palagi na lang.. favorite nya kase kamustahin ang lagay ng puso namin magkakapatid. hehe.:) some tips and advices,, hehe.. haay,, good decision and i knew it. mother knows best right??)hehe.

then fly off to glorietta and bought ate's under shirts. dibididibidi!!!! hahaha!!! and ill be your follower as soonest as possible.:) 

by the way, i just want to extend my deepest heartfelt thanks to all!! thanks for the wishes and greetings!! you guys made my day complete!!:) and to you from the north, thank you for remembering my birthday. its unexpected,, i mean, subconsciously i am still hopeful your digits will appear on my pal, eventhough its kinda late, hehehehe!!:) you made my day so special. heaven knows how much i miss you. :) 

then,, after this,, what will i do??? oh my,, caccupino it is.. your favorite coffee buddy. caccupino. (namiss ko na naman sya) *kainis*