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all my thoughts, wishes, intentions and reklamos are freely floating here.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

im a big "L"

i used to check all my social network account every now and then. and i hate it. i cant control but to stalk his account. damn it. i thought i moved on and totally got a full blown relocation. but i just did. and really feel like im a big loser. *sigh*
i dont hate nor angry, or inis or asar. its my very decision which put ours on what we were now. i think he's just fine. i can see it. and i really think he was. he is.. i mean. i hate myself  being here. messing up my day viewing his account, new updates, pictures, activities he's gettin into,, hay,, and that made me really a stalker. right?
i miss him. his digits are still here, but i dont want to text him or even say the traditional "kamusta na?". oo na ma-pride ako. waaaaaaaaaahhhh.......:(
"How can I move on if Ive been in love with you????" still... *KAINIS!!!*



                                  
okay that's it. allow me for expressing my dormant feeling. wag na kayo magreact!!!haha!!! haaayyy....:(


Friday, September 18, 2009

DI TAO DI HAYOP. BAGAY! BAGAY TAYO! =)

hahahha. as of the moment, im having a chitchat with ron turon. hahaha tatawa ako mga banat ever.

here. mga samples. haha!!!


Geometry ba favorite subject mo?
- Kasi kahit anong angle, ang cute mo.

Alam mo ba scientist ako?
- At IKAW ang LAB ko.

Ano height mo?
- Paano ka nagkasya sa puso ko?

Ang galing mo siguro sa puzzles...
- Kasi umaga palang nabuo mo na araw ko.


Bangin ka ba?
- Nahulog kasi ako sa'yo.

I'm a bee...
- Can you be my HONEY?

May license ka ba?
- Coz you are driving me crazy.

Athlete ka ba?
- Kanina ka pa kasi tumatakbo sa isip ko.


Tapos na ba exams mo?
-Para ako naman ang sagutin mo!

Alarm clock ka ba?
-Ginsing mo kasi ang natutulog kong puso!

Can you recommend a good bank where I can make a deposit?
-Because I’m planning to save all my love for you.

Ibibili kita ng salbabida.
-Kasi malulunod ka sa pagmamahal ko!

Drugs ka ba?
-Nasisira na ko


mga banat ever.. haha!!! wlangya ka turon,, naalala ko tuloy.. hahaha hayyy.. those were the days..:)

thank you turon for everything. :) through thick and thin bagyo man o tag summer haha youre always present. di man physically present pero i can feel your warm friendship.:) haha, tagal na!!!!! okay awat na! drama pa eh noh???? :) damn it. haha!!!


at....


 sa dami ng banat....
wala na kong maisip kundi IKAW.


hahahaa, yan, may pahabol pa!! :)) hahaha!!!

WHAT A WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...


beautifully written "maya - angelo" poem.  read this.:)


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
enough
money within her control to move out
and rent a place of her own,
even if she never wants to or needs to...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
something
perfect to wear if the employer,
or date of her dreams
wants to see her in an hour...

A WOMAN SHOULD
HAVE .
a youth she's content to leave behind....

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
a past juicy
enough that she's looking forward to
retelling it in her
old age....
 A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
one friend who
always makes her laugh.. and one who lets her cry...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
a good piece
of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her
family...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
eight
matching plates, wine glasses with stems,
and a recipe for
a meal,
that will make her guests feel honored...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
a feeling of
control over her destiny..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD
KNOW...
how to fall in love without losing herself..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to quit
a job,
break up with a lover,
and confront a friend
without
ruining the friendship...
EVERY WOMAN
SHOULD KNOW...
when to try harder... and WHEN TO WALK
AWAY..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that she can't change the length of her calves,
the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that her
childhood may not have been perfect...but it's over...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she
would and wouldn't do for love or more...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW....
how to live
alone... even if she doesn't like it...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
whom she can trust,
whom she can't,
and why she shouldn't take it personally...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
where to
go...
be it to her best friend's kitchen table..
or a
charming Inn in the woods....
when her soul needs
soothing...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
What she can and can't accomplish in a day...
a
month...and a year

Monday, September 14, 2009

ITS ALL AROUND. BUS RIDE.



330 in the morning. seemed that no one's active. except me and the driver. im on my way back here. too lazy and sleepy, but my passion ringed me more than a single alarm. so many things clouded,bombarded,lingered on my hemisphere then suddenly i found myself puzzling out,,, hay,,, *kainis talaga*. oh come on,, "pride detergent bar kase", i said, then he said, "pride chicken." haha!! oh well, yes were both corny and it doesnt matter anyway. (reminiscing)





2 months, 3 days.. i am afraid that this will last for a year or more. i thought everything's moving upward and unwavingly. and it was just a thought. oh and i can take off the control no more. nerve cracking it is. but what can i do? lintek na yan. haha. *kainis talaga!!!*

rushed out and currently catching up the mood. just having a hard time expressing the recent post-status-chaotic-euphoric slam. 




"i thought"

***covered court. i am sorry for mistakenly judging you. akala ko jinojoketime mo lang ako, tama ka andami ko doubts. pero kase para ka kaseng joketime palagi ung muka mo pangjoketime pa. pero i love it.  sabi mo baay. i thought its bahay. then to be more exact sabi mo covered court. 3 months na iniisip ko hindi ka tlaga matino kausap. and you're hiding a part of you. wanted ka ba at may pinagtataguan?? pero i deserved a slap. my mistake. and i am sorry. but its too late. and my fault. 






"you thought"

***gagawa ako ng aksidente. without further control i just uttered this one remember? got it? diba hinde. hay kung ano ano kase ang pinagiiisip mo. and ayoko na magexplain. kaya sabi ko bahala ka na. di tayo magmeet sa gitna. "di mo lang kase alam pinagdadaanan ko ngayon " sabi ko. sabi mo naman,"bat san ka ba dumadaan?" ako naman si gaga nakiride, "sa taft". hay bwiset. wala ng matinong paguusap. "maraming aksidente sa taft, magingat ka palagi ha", yan naman ang sabi mo. palagi tayo ganto, tipong, "please hear what i am not saying". ansakit sa ulo. pareho tayo gumagawa ng sakit sa ulo. 






IN GOD's TIME... 







haaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyy........... . .. . . . . ... . . . . . . . ..

Saturday, August 29, 2009

THE CURIOUS INCIDENT OF THE DOG IN THE NIGHT TIME

Im on my way home, and its raining. and that made me here at SB near us. haha. so here i am, on my favorite spot holding my book. :)
yes.. i am reading a book. haha!!burger??? haha mamilong i know you're reacting hahaha!!  its so unusual that i got into it but i really am enjoying this piece.:) here's the book. 


it is SUBTLE, yet it's MOVING!!
Meet Christopher Boone, a 15 year old boy living in Swindon with Asperger’s syndrome. This book is being described as a murder mystery novel with a "difference." He is a bit weird, though, the character will kick up your empathy. it will really take the reader into the chaos of autism and creates a character of such empathy that many readers will begin to feel for the first time what it is like to live a life in which there are no filters to eliminate or order the millions of pieces of information that come to us through our senses every instant of the day. For the autistic person, most stimuli register with equal impact, and because these little pieces of information cannot usually be processed effectively, life becomes a very confusing mess of constantly competing signals.




SOME EXTRACTS of his QUOTABLE IDEAS: 

"My memory is like a film….And when people ask me to remember something I can simply press Rewind and Fast Forward and Pause like on a video recorder….If someone says to me, 'Christopher, tell me what your mother was like,' I can rewind to lots of different scenes and say what she was like in those scenes."

"When I am in a new place, because I see everything, it is like when a computer is doing too many things at the same time and the central processor unit is blocked up and there isn't any space left to think about other things….And sometimes when I am in a new place and there are lots of people there it is like a computer crashing and I have to close my eyes and put my hands over my ears and groan, which is like pressing CTRL + ALT + DEL and shutting down programs and turning the computer off and rebooting so that I can remember what I am doing and where I am meant to be going."


"Prime numbers are what is left when you have taken all the patterns away. I think prime numbers are like life. They are very logical but you could never work out the rules, even if you spent all your time thinking about them."
"The word metaphor means carrying something from one place to another…and it is when you describe something by using a word for something that it isn't. This means that the word metaphor is a metaphor. I think it should be called a lie because a pig is not like day and people don't have skeletons in their cupboards."
"Mother used to say that Christopher was a nice name because it was a story about being kind and helpful, but I do not want my name to mean a story…I want my name to mean me."
"...there aren't any lines in space, so you could join bits of Orion to bits of Lepus* or Taurus or Gemini and say that they were a constellation called The Bunch of Grapes or Jesus or The Bicycle...And anyway, Orion is not a hunter or a coffee maker or a dinosaur. It is just Betelguese and Bellatrix and Alnilam and Rigel an 17 other stars I don't know the names of. And they are nuclear explosions billions of miles away. And that is the truth."

"All the other children at my school are stupid. Except I'm not meant to call them stupid, even though this is what they are." 

"...people who believe in God think God has put human beings on earth because they think human beings are the best animal, but human beings are just an animal and they will evolve into another animal, and that animal will be cleverer and it will put human beings into a zoo, like we put chimpanzees and gorillas into a zoo. Or human beings will all catch a disease and die out or they will make too much pollution and kill themselves, and then there will only be insects in the world and they will be the best animal." 

"And then I thought that I had to be like Sherlock Holmes and I had to detach my mind at will to a remarkable degree so that I did not notice how much it was hurting inside my head." 

"...and there was nothing to do except to wait and to hurt." 

"I think people believe in heaven because they don't like the idea of dying, because they want to carry on living and they don't like the idea that other people will move into their house and put their things into the rubbish." 

Eventually scientists will discover something that explains ghosts, just like they discovered electricity, which explained lightning, and it might be something about people's brains, or something about the earth's magnetic field, or it might be some new force altogether. And then ghosts won't be mysteries. They will be like electricity and rainbows and nonstick frying pans." 

"I do not tell lies. Mother used to say that this was because I was a good person. But it is not because I am a good person. It is because I do not tell lie." 

"And Father said, "Christopher, do you understand that I love you?"
And I said "Yes," because loving someone is helping them when they get into trouble, and looking after them, and telling them the truth, and Father looks after me when I get into trouble, like coming to the police station, and he looks after me by cooking meals for me, and he always tells me the truth, which means that he loves me." 

"And when the universe has finished exploding all the stars will slow down, like a ball that has been thrown into the air, and they will come to a halt and they will all begin to fall towards the centre of the universe again. And then there will be nothing to stop us seeing all the stars in the world because they will all be moving towards us, gradually faster and faster, and we will know that the world is going to end soon because when we look up into the sky at night there will be no darkness, just the blazing light of billions and billions of stars, all falling." 


"...and I wrote a book and that means I can do anything" 



Friday, August 28, 2009



There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
Like a, shoebox of photographs
With sepiatone loving
Love is the answer,
At least for most of the questions in my heart
Like why are we here? And where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy and
Sometimes life can be deceiving
And all of these moments
Just might find their way into my dreams tonight
But I know that they'll be gone
When the morning light sings
And brings new things
For tomorrow night you see
That they'll be gone too
Too many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find their way
Into my day to day scene
I'd be under the impression
I was somewhere in between
With only two
Just me and you
Not so many things we got to do
Or places we got to be
We'll Sit beneath the mango tree now
I believe in memories
They look so, so pretty when I sleep
Hey now, and when I wake up,
You look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time,
And there is no, no song I could sing
And there is no, combination of words I could say
But I will still tell you one thing
We're better together.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

WHAT ABOUT TODAY??


i slept late so i woke up sooo lazy late. :) Im up at around 10am,. same routine.. i had opened my netbook and checked my email, facebook, friendster and blogger! haha!! i am enjoying reading other's blogs.:)

AND!! MARK IT DOWN FELLOWS! haha!! IM INTO READING,, yes you read it right!! :) I AM!!-----people close to me knew that i am not fond of reading books, not that i hate it or something,, well i just don't like it.. i tried it but it really made me feel bored. haha!! maybe not my interest,,. BUT!! i like T3 magazines and trivia books. oh not to mention, pugad baboy stuffs as well. :)] so where am I?? yes a book. and im enjoying every pages of it. it was really a beautifully written book based on the eyes of a boy who has ASPERGER'S SYNDROME ( a type of autism ---sometimes, i am. :)). by the way, here's the book.

Mark Haddon, "the author", impressed me and captured my innermost dormant admiration. it's subtle, it's simple, yet moving. i started reading it since yesterday, and maybe by tomorrow i am thru. :) hehe. AT LAST! applausing?? naaahh.. haha!! (oohh,, sounds like it was an achievement... whew).

then..

i got to be ready...hello reality. WORK WORK WORK!!!

I had my duty (pm shift). i'm the referral so i had less patients. oohhh baby amor's really cute and cuddly!!! and man,,,, he's very matakaw! haha!! cute little angel :). i assisted my patient to the heart station for he undergone 2D echo. afterwards, we got home to NICU (ni-kyu). around 5pm we had an admission - a 24th weeker baby,, she was really exremely premature. the residents and the admitting nurse tried and done their best to revive the patient, but she died. sayang, i didnt noticed the whole scenario because i am busy with my baby amor. anyways, after the megacode, a priest came in and did the rituals then her father, carried her baby girl,, oh man! and it did pinched my heart as i saw her dad crying and weeping. and to lessen his burden, i gave him tissue paper and a pillow. ( am i a big help for doing such? haha!). since I am a freshy for that, i am tasked to do the post mortem care. we cleaned the little angel's body, then we injected formalin onto her extremeties. my senior asked me to aspirate the solution out of the bottle. and ohh.. my fault!!!

i accidentally pricked my finger!

it turned me 360 and it made me sweat as corn! at first i am in denial but after few seconds, i uttered, "ma'am, i got pricked". i was really nervous because of the ff reasons: 1. formalin is a poisonous solution. 2. formalin is a preservative for the dead. 3. complications of formalin one's injected to the body. --- now i know the feeling of being preserved. haha! my senior furiously asked the ROD about it,, good thing,, there were mo serious complications, unless i got pricked after i had shot the dead body... waahhh!!



have you pictured out what a 24th weeker looks like?? see this:
she looks so delicate...rest in peace little girl...


SO WHAT ABOUT TOMORROW?? HMMM.. GOODNIGHT EVERYONE! :)