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Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Get over him. He's not even worth it. He is not worth your time or your tears. Yea you loved him, I know that. And I know you just can’t see yourself with anyone other than him, I get that. I’ve been there. But why should you spend all your time sitting at home, bawling your eyes out and wondering where he is and who he is with. Do you honestly think he is thinking about you? No. Sure it hurts, the fact that he is out there falling in and out of love with other girls. Yea your gonna see him with one of his new girlfriends. Prepare yourself, cuz straight up; its gonna hurt. He will hold her a little closer and squeeze her hand a little tighter just because he knows your watching. He knows its killing you; that’s why he will do it. Don’t let him get to you because that, well that’s exactly what he wants. Don’t give him what he wants. He doesn’t even deserve it. So what if he doesn't talk to you; do you honestly wanna be friends with an ***hole like him anyways? Thing is I know you still do. But give it time. Because all he would do is talk about his new girlfriend and just try and make you jealous, do you really wanna hear that? No. Screw him and his girlfriend. He will be sorry. Trust me. When he finally sees you with some other guy who’s not him. With that huge grin on your face and your boyfriend holding you close, he will realize how happy you are now. And how happy your boyfriend is because he has you; the girl of his dreams. He will realize the huge mistake he made when he let you go, when he decided to choose her over you. When he decided he just did not love you the same. Trust me, he will be sorry. And don’t you sit there thinking he won't be sorry I know you are. But I guarantee you now; He will be sorry. So don’t go on spending your nights waiting for that one phone call you know your never gonna get. Or that IM you know he will never send you simply because he likes to ignore you. He like to pretend he does not see you online, he does it outta spite just because he knows its killing you. When he walks past you in the hallways he is gonna look past you, but you need to know he will do that cuz he knows somewhere inside you, it will hurt. I ain’t gonna lie to you. It will hurt. It’ll hurt alot. But it will hurt even more when you see her name and how much he loves her in his profile. Its all gonna hurt. Knowing your not the girl that’s making him smile. Knowing your not the first person he thinks of when he wakes up and the last before he goes to sleep. Knowing your not the face on his background of his phone anymore. Knowing if he hasn’t already he will delete the album of pictures of you he has on his phone. Knowing you wont be spending every single moment possible with him. Knowing there’s not gonna be no more late night phone calls arguing about who loves who the most. And you know what, today, tomorrow, next week, months from now; your phone will go off with a text message, you will instantly grab your phone hoping its him saying he wants to give your relationship another shot. But trust me; hes got to much pride. Even if he wanted to be back with you, he wouldn’t tell you. Your soon gonna realize he doesn’t care about you anymore and he wont be the first person you call when your upset. He wont be the one to put that smile back on your face. And yea its gonna hurt; its gonna hurt alot. But you know what your gonna do? Your gonna hold your head up. Your gonna show him your better than him and you don’t need him in your life. Your gonna prove to him that 

- this explains my life



Friday, March 5, 2010

THINGS TO BE FORGOTTEN AND BE REMEMBERED.

One of the reasons why people get so sentimental,, its because memories are the only things that don't change.. when everything else does... there are things that you cant hold on forever,,, no matter how much you fight for it.. no matter how hard you try,,. sometimes, destiny isn't always good, it becomes playful.. when you met someone you learned to love, you thought that it was destiny who made your paths cross.. but, what if making your paths cross is just part of the game that the playful destiny create? making you realize in the end that the person you thought that was destined for you wasn't really meant to stay... but only destined to make you feel love and leave you when you've already fallen...

its not easy to state a reason when you decide to leave your love.. some might think its just an excuse.. some might not actually believe in it.. some will blame you. or even be mad at you. what they don't see is the fact that it hurts you even more to hurt someone who doesn't to be hurt. especially when you cannot  actually state the reason why you have to leave..

you can never own something that was never yours.. so lets stop gripping on things we expect to last forever. nothing lasts forever. forever is a lie. everything is transitory. so while something is in your hand, put in mind that its just borrowed.. so that someday when its gone.,,it wont take you eternity just to let it go.. when your feelings get strong for someone, its always wise to stop for a while and give your heart - a time to breathe. a time to use your mind to weigh the situation based on reason not on emotion.. because the saddest thing that can happen is when one fall in love while the others want nothing more than friendship. love can sometimes be magic. but magic can sometimes be an illusion.

there are times when i wish that i was limited to certain emotions. so that ill never have to experience pain, never feel betrayed or disappointed,  and never get my fragile heart broken.. but the same thing means ill never know how it feels to love and be love in return.. and the thought of it kinda scares me.. to have a heart that's a whole but numb? or a heart that's broken but real?

someday, we will all be looking back to those days we learned to love, get hurt, cry and fight.. maybe.. when that time comes, we will all be laughing at our old dumb selves. realizing how stupid we were to stand up for the things we knew weren't really meant for us. but i guess learning takes time. and mistakes make one's journey fun. life is what we make it. love makes the world go round. so lets live, love, and take whatever pain it brings..

though its hard to wait for something that I know will never happen,,its harder to stop when  I know it's everything I've always wanted.. but you know what? I'm glad.. I'm glad it happened.

thank you for all those memories. sana im okay na,, at ikaw din okay na.. sana happy na ko,, sana kaw din happy ka na.. i'll pray for you everyday,, :'( so long,,, till we meet again.. in God's perfect time..

i miss you still

im not mad,, im just so sad,. :(